I Believe 10

From the Heart by Robin Davis

I believe that it’s not always easy to speak your truth. coque iphone

I have been encouraged by the many articles I’ve read recently about authenticity. About speaking one’s truth, about holding space for what is important and sacred for you, and about maintaining one’s integrity. I want to be in a place where I can do this.

I believe that authenticity is a huge part of self love and self care. I believe that it is about understanding what is important to you – your values, your dreams, your principles – and holding space for these things in your life. Holding space by making sure that there is time to incorporate these things, by valuing them sufficiently that you carry them at the forefront of your mind and by respectfully giving them priority over what others might think.

But, I also believe that others, too, have the right to do the same. Coque huawei Pas Cher We all have different perspectives, opinions and values, and we all have a right to express these in the way we live our lives. I believe that I have a responsibility to respect the values and opinions of others – not necessarily to agree with them, but to hold them in an open hearted way that allows me to embrace all of who they are. Coque iphone I want to be able to understand that their experiences of the world are not the same as mine and that as a result of this, the things that they find important may be different from mine, and that the way they express these values and perspectives may not be the same as the way I do.

Finally, I believe that words and behaviour can be used in a manipulative way. They can be used to hurt and wound. When someone causes you to hurt, it is human nature to lash out and try and make them feel pain too. You want them to experience what you are experiencing. coque samsung galaxy You want them to know and understand how badly you feel.

But sometimes it seems that there is a fine line between speaking what is true for you as a means of self care and authenticity, and being hurtful. This is something I experienced this week. coque samsung prix I was hurt and wanted explain my feelings based on my experiences, but also to understand where my friend was coming from, but I could see that my words were hurtful – and this was something that I did not intend.

I believe that there must be a way to speak my truth, to express my perspective without disrespecting others who feel differently.

Intentions

*image courtesy of quotable cards.

I live my life with lists, including ‘to do’ lists – many of which never get done even though I love ticking the items off when I’ve completed them! If I have an event coming up, out comes a spreadsheet and I meticulously plan what items I need for the event to be a success. A family party will inspire menus and shopping lists and a schedule for cooking, freezing and things to do on the day. Holidays elicit lists of things to purchase and pack and Christmas requires a list of cards to make and send. Why then do I fall down when it comes to scheduling tasks and goals necessary to build a business?

It would appear that building my business falls way down in my list of priorities – somewhere behind catching up with emails and facebook, my favourite blogs, recorded TV shows, days out with hubby and, when things get really bad, housework!

So inspired by ‘A Year With Myself’, I think it’s time to get organised. offre Coque pour Huawei To give myself a framework that will keep me straight and guide my posts. Coque huawei P10 And since Monday starts the week, I thought that would be a good day to set an intention for the week. coque samsung a8 amazon On Wednesday, I will participate in Amy Palko’s Beautiful Beliefs Project and on Friday I will reflect on the week and consider what gifts I have received over the previous seven days. Tuesdays and Thursdays will be left for me to ponder what takes my interest on those days! And most importantly, I will retain a bit of flexibility just in case there’s a bit of a cock up!

At this juncture it might be helpful to explore what an intention is and how it differs from a goal. A goal is defined as “the aim or object towards which an endeavour is directed”, whereas intention is defined as “an act or instance of determining mentally upon some action or result” or “purpose or attitude toward the effect of one’s actions or conduct” (Collins Concise Dictionary).

Dana Theus gives a simple personal example. coque iphone outlet shop “You may have a goal to leave the office every day by 6pm to spend time with your family. Great goal, but inevitably, if you’re in a leadership position, business intervenes with – stuff. Coque iPhone 6S If all you have is your goal, every time the business hands you a stinker, you fail, feel bad, piss off your spouse/boss etc. Who wants goals like that? Alternatively if you have an intention to spend as much quality time with your family as possible, you will still have to deal with those inconvenient work problems, but you have no guilt about coming into the office 30 minutes late the next morning to make time to take your kid to school”. She suggests that by meeting your intention, you’re giving yourself the flexibility to deal with life as it shows up while still achieving success on your own terms and that intentions give you permission to achieve success where others only see options to fail by not meeting the goal. This distinction is important for someone like me for whom failure feeds into the whole ‘I’m not good enough’ frame of mind!

So, without further ado and it being Monday, today I will set my intention for this week – to give myself time, ahead of everything else, to write. To research my topics so that I come fully prepared and present to the posts that I write, and to make sure that my readers get the best of me.

Intention

A day late – but here nonetheless! I didn’t get round to writing my intentions for the week yesterday – because I was too busy doing them!!

My intention was to make a card to congratulate Awesome Daughter Number Two’s partner on his graduation (which happens today) – Congratulations Craig! And to make two birthday cards – one for my sister and one for Tech Guy’s sister. I intended to send off my post to the luscious Kathy from Bliss Habits, coque samsung who most graciously invited me to submit a guest post for this week’s topic of Resolve. coque samsung Well, offre Coque Huawei I got all of those done yesterday – would you like to see one of the cards? Check out the end of the post!

It’s Tech Guy’s birthday on Saturday, but we’ll be away on our holiday and Awesome Daughter Number Three will be away on hers by then – so we will be having a Birthday Day for him on Wednesday instead!

I have embarked on a gluten/wheat free diet having read that it’s a quick and painless way to eat more healthily – well, it’s not quick and it’s not painless – but more about that on Wednesday. And I intend to persevere with this way of eating, with all of it’s challenges.

I still intend to publish posts for this week – on Wednesday and Friday – in between shopping, coque samsung s7 pas cher cleaning, laundry and packing, so it’s going to be a busy week!

My last intention is to come to the end of the week without stressing and to make sure I pack my journal so that I can remember and work through the challenges and lessons that will come up next week,

I Believe 5

Image by Karen Blackburn

I believe that the desire or need for control comes from fear.

For me, the fear is that if I have to deal with the spontaneous or the unexpected I’ll be found wanting – I’ll be seen, attention will be focused on me and I’ll be found out as not being good enough or important enough. I am aware that this desire resides in me and I think it was born when my Mother retained all the control in my life (friends, money, social time) – right up until I married my first husband at the age of 21. Thereafter, being away from the controlling situation, I needed to have control myself. coque samsung pas cher I needed to be right. Achat Coque iPhone I needed to know where things were going and what would happen. I planned things to death, lists were the order of the day and so were tantrums if things didn’t go my way! Over the last year or so – since I began my spiritual journey – I have come to understand that we have no real control over anything other than ourselves (though I do frequently still experience this desire to control, just as I fear being exposed as not being good enough). coque iphone outlet store When I get into this place of resistance (need to control or opposition to what I believe), I feel it as tension, both physically and in my soul. It feels like there is a large, strong, solid fence resisting the wind, and the anxiety, anger, frustration and hurt that I feel is the turbulence caused by the wind hitting this immovable force. When I visualise it like this, I can imagine the fence changing into a tree with beautiful pliable branches, thus allowing everything through. The turbulence stops, and it really does feel like softening, and the anxiety, anger and hurt can dissipate. My soul feels gentler and more able to allow love in.

Photo from http://www.mysticfamiliar.com/library/treelore/willow.html

This really is a work in progress – it’s not easy to break down the walls that I have taken 30 years to build up, but brick by brick I am dismantling them. coque samsung Ultimately, they will go and the ‘me’ that I have been afraid to show the world will be there in all my glory – with no need to control, because I will understand that I am good enough and I am important!

This post was inspired by Julie Daley’s post ‘Softening into the Silk of the Soul’. Coque huawei Outlet You can find it here – Unabashedly Female by Julie Daley

This was originally posted as part of Amy Palko’s Beautiful Beliefs Project at Sunshine on a Rainy Day on 6th June 2012.

This post is published as a contribution to Amy Palko’s Beautiful Beliefs Project.

I Believe 4

I believe that I am one of the luckiest women alive!

I am not financially wealthy. I don’t live in a mansion. I don’t drive a fancy sports car. I don’t take expensive holidays. My bank account is overdrawn and I sit on a second hand sofa. But my life is perfect. Coque huawei I am married to a wonderful man whose mission in life seems to be to ensure my happiness. I have three beautiful accomplished daughters and a son-in-law whose mission in life seems to be to ensure my daughter’s happiness. coque telephone samsung I have two cats who can be cuddly when they want to be fed and haughty once they’ve eaten. Who entertain us when they are chasing rainbows or hunting hair bands. coque samsung s8 I don’t work, so my husband and I have time – time to spend together, time to watch the birds out of the window and time to get out in nature and wonder at her bounty.

I get to enjoy the sun shine and the rain fall. I love it when I’m being blown over by a blustery gale and when I can be warm and cosy indoors when it’s cold and snowy outside or when the hailstones are stinging my cheeks on the way to bouncing off the path. I love to watch the butterflies flitting among the flowers and I love to catch sight of a deer in the distance when I’m out in the country.

I can meditate – even though I’m still just learning and not very good at it yet – and I love my crystals. coque samsung I love reading and learning and sharing what I’ve learned. I love quiet time to myself and I love noisy time with my family (sometimes!). I love that I’m learning that I don’t have to be perfect at everything at the same time as being perfect because I’m unique.

I Believe 3

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I believe that I am becoming more accepting of myself.While this is a post written for Amy Palko’s Beautiful Beliefs project, it was inspired by a post in Bliss Habits.

In today’s Bliss Habits, Sandi Amorin talks about her ‘lizard brain’ – you know, the one that tells you that you can’t do things, you’re rubbish, you’ll never be good enough, you shouldn’t try that it’ll all end in tears. She calls hers ‘Lizzie’. I prefer to cal mine ….’Mum’! I guess some of you might know where I’m coming from here.

My lizard brain has done a great job over the last fifty years of making sure that I don’t get above my station. It tells me that I’m stupid and not as good as my sisters – they have well-paid, responsible jobs that they have done for over twenty years, whereas, here am I, unemployed and feeling pretty unemployable. Oh, don’t get me wrong I’ve had my share of jobs – I’ve worked in banks, call centres, the hospitality industry and I’ve been a nurse. Coque Huawei France I’ve supervised schoolchildren to pay my way through university, had three beautiful daughters and two husbands (one of which I still have!). I have two degrees, and I volunteer in my local wildlife centre and Cat Protection centre. coque iphone d’occasion I can knit, I make cards (I even made my eldest daughter’s wedding stationery) and I have qualifications in some complementary therapies – and yet, my lizard brain tells me that I’ve really accomplished very little. It still tells me that I’m not good enough. It compares what I should have accomplished with what I’ve actually accomplished – and it appears that I fall short!

This is a common theme in my life – the theme of ‘not enough’. I don’t earn enough, I don’t have enough, I’m not slim enough, I’m not pretty enough, I don’t call my daughters/sisters/parents often enough. I don’t clean the house enough, I don’t cook healthy enough meals, I don’t do enough to stick within my housekeeping budget. Basically, the message is that I’m not enough.

Now, much of the reading I have been doing recently has been about loving oneself and I have always questioned how you can love yourself when you don’t even like yourself much, but I’m realising that just being kind to yourself is a way of loving yourself. Because loving doesn’t have to be that full-on, gushing, heart filling feeling that you get with your children or your partner. It can be just acting in a kind manner – just like you would with anyone you meet. When you act with compassion towards another person – opening a door for them because their hands are full, giving up your seat on the bus because the lady that just got on is pregnant or is struggling with a young child – you are acting in a loving way. When your child finishes half way down the field in the race at school sports day, you don’t say, “well you didn’t come first so you’re not good enough”. coque iphone sale You say “well done you for doing your best”. You say “99% in your maths test, fantastic! You must have worked really hard!” not “what happened to the other 1%?” (Unless, of course you’re my mother which I guess is where all this stems from). You act in a kind and loving manner.

So, my aim has been to find ways in which I can act in a kind and loving manner towards myself, in the hope that this will develop into the self love which I believe I deserve. And yesterday, I saw this in action. It was a beautiful day here in Scotland – sunny and warm – so I decided to go outside and do some gardening. I mowed the back lawn and trimmed the edges. coque telephone samsung j3 Cut back a couple of bushes that were encroaching on the path and cleared a small area of weeds (dandelions, mind you, that fight back!). A couple of hours later with sweat dripping off my brow and a strained hamstring from stretching too much, I decided that I’d done enough, packed away my tools and went inside for a well earned cup of coffee.

Now, bear in mind that, while not huge, our garden is a bit bigger than a postage stamp and it generally gets weeded completely about once a year. In addition, we allow our dandelions to flower and seed because the goldfinches like the tiny seeds – so you’ll have an idea of how many weeds there were – probably three full days of weeding’s worth. And I did a couple of hours. My lizard brain began to kick in. “You’ve not done enough.” “You should have stayed out longer.” “Everyone else’s garden is neater than yours!” But I managed to stop it before it took hold. I was able to recognise that completely tidying the garden in one afternoon was an impossible task and was able to acknowledge my achievements. The lawn was tidy with neat edges. The path was clear enough to walk on and there was a small weed free patch just under the kitchen window.

I Believe 2

Ring Ouzel – Photo by Richard Blackburn

I believe that I can change.

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I Believe 1

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I believe:

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Gratitude Friday 4

‘House Sparrow’ – photo by Richard Blackburn

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So here goes:

The view from my sofa that looks out over our bird feeders and all the birds that come to them.

The cat sitting at the window watching the very same birds!

The gift of language so that I can write these words.

The buzz of the bees as they hover over the Californian lilac outside the kitchen window.

Gluten free muffins.

Three awesome daughters.

One amazing husband.

Sunshine and raindrops.

Books.

Satin ribbons.

The first cup of coffee in the morning.

The last cup of chamomile tea at night.

Poppies and aquilegia.

Freshly laundered sheets.

Mike Oldfield.

Freebies in the post.

Fabulous friends.

Oh,

I Believe 9

I believe that sometimes in the spirit of self love and self care, we need to cut ourselves some slack.

I am tired. Over the last few days I have struggled to sleep at night. coque samsung s8 The energies around during the run up to the full moon upset my sleep rhythms. I have a desire to produce quality blog posts and at the same time be available to spend quality time with Tech Guy on his days off work, or with Awesome Daughter Number Three who is now on school holiday. I have made a commitment to producing three blog posts a week and have been asked by the wonderful Kathy Sprinkle to produce a post for her website, Bliss Habits, which I am totally delighted to do! In addition I have been planning for a week’s holiday, organising the production of a variety of greetings cards and preparing for a graduation. On reflection it doesn’t seem like I’ve got all that much to do, but when my body and head are crying out for sleep that doesn’t want to come, it becomes a mountain.

Awesome Daughter Number Two, Tech Guy and Me!

Yesterday Awesome Daughter Number Two graduated from University. We attended a lovely ceremony and watched so many young adults preparing to move on to the next stage in their lives. coque iphone pas cher Beautiful classical architecture surrounded us. Vente Coque samsung Families dressed in their finery, bedecked with cameras to capture the moments. Pimms being served on the lawn, followed by a departmental reception to celebrate the achievements of their own students. Mortar boards flying. Proud parents.

Then out for a celebratory dinner. Joined by other family members, grandparents and best friends. Wine, food and conversation flowed. Plans made for the summer to come and reminiscences about times past.

But this week, it’s all taking its toll and as a result I am completely washed out. I have enjoyed, or am looking forward to each and every one of the above activities, but because I have been so tired they have become more difficult than they should.

However, rather than beat myself up about all the potential failures, I choose to be kind to myself. coque samsung galaxy I choose to prioritise and order my tasks, to do the important ones and to leave the others or find a way of making them easier. Today I show myself some self love and cut myself some slack. coque samsung a8 2018 I’ll be back tomorrow energised and ready to go!

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This post is published as a contribution to Amy Palko’s Beautiful Beliefs Project.